emotion outburst

I am very sad to repeat this a third time in 2 weeks that I felt that my friends have taken me for granted.

Many a times, I really wanted to be a nice person. I had always tried to be a special friend to my friends and tried to do something more to give a personal touch. This is definitely not some kind of 'boot-licking' activity that some may do to please their bosses. I am not that kind of person. I don't need to lick anyone's boots. I do those things simply because I feel that I would like it if someone treated me in the same manner. I am not saying that I expect anything in return from my friends. In fact I do not expect anything in return. I just feel happy to be nice to others.

But the sad thing about humans is that when you pamper them too much, they become like a spoilt kid with an it's-your-job-to-pamper-me mentality. This kind of mentality really made me feel like strangling myself and pulling out my hair. Why can't people just learn how to appreciate other people? No need to be thankful or grateful. Mere appreciation will do.

If someone stepped on your toes once or twice or even three times, you will still be able to smile back at the person as the pain is still bearable. If someone continually stepped on your toes thinking you happily stood there for them to step on, won't you take a step back if the pain is unbearable? I would. Taking a step back does not mean putting an end to the friendship but to take some time to ponder on the reason for being stepped upon. I guess this is inevitable as I'm not immune to pain. I am human.