moody

I'm in a super moody mood. I'm not myself anymore. I'm no longer the Jerlynn I used to be. The cruel reality of life has eroded my heart. The experience is a painful one. Something I wished never happened. I miss the forever-trusting me, the forever-obliging me, the forever-no-temper me.

I would love to trust everyone around me, but the truth of the darkside of humanity forbade me to do so. The mere recollection of unhappy memories just brings me down.

I would love to say yes to everyone around me, but the truth of people stepping all over my head and toes just leaves me with a silent scream in my heart. My heart sinks at the thought of people who take me for granted.

I never knew how to get angry. I just felt so sad that my level of tolerance depreciated with age. It's just not me. I wasn't like that in the past. What's happening?

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-_- no mood to sleep. So, nobody missed me for the past week. Sad.