Thursday, August 10, 2006

post-national day blues

Somehow, I never like it when a public holiday falls right smack in the middle of the week. Today is a Thursday, but somehow it feels like a Monday to me.

Yesterday being national day, instead of getting all hyped up at the national stadium, I chose to go somewhere tranquil, peaceful, and out of this world. I went to MacRitchie Reservoir to take a walk and have some peace and quiet. As I sat down to look across the Reservoir, though man-made, the waters was really green and sparkly. It was beautiful. Somehow, my mind went floating on the waters, with mild ripples.


Sparkling MacRitchie Reservoir Posted by Picasa


When you let your minds wonder, you will tend to think of unhappy things instead of happy ones, especially when you are alone. I guess I'm at a cross road now, deciding which direction to move on to. It will be a major decision as I do not think I'll be able to handle another cross-road soon. Nevertheless, that's life, isn't it? Life is about making choices. I hate to make major decisions. And especially when I'm feeling a little regretful about certain decisions I had made some years back. I'm really lousy at making decisions.

Whenever I face such situations, I always feel like running away! Escapism is never a solution, but it is tempting, isn't it? To escape from troubles. But for how long will escapism last? Almost never. It is just like seeking alcohol to forget troubles. Somehow, you will get sober only too soon.

It was a blessing that I did not have to stay there for long as I had another dinner appointment to catch up with some friends over dinner. Something happier to look forward to. A form of escapism. At least for that evening.

4 comments:

coboypb said...

I hope you are feeling better already. Take care.

JerL said...

Thanks. It's a cycle. Guess it will last till end of this year. Hopefully I've made my decision by then.

Anonymous said...

I think life is made up of crossroads, and because it smacks of change, we can be afraid of the unknown.

JerL said...

Yep. I'm someone who hates changes!!!